August 6

 Recently a friend asked me, "What keeps the sparkle in your eyes?" I thought a little and answered, "A while ago I gave up anger--I could not afford it", (my body, my mind). "Then I gave up fear for the same reason--I could not afford it." I was mor peaceful. Sadness is a part of life. Grieving is good. I grieve; then I let go.

So what more is there to do?

Well, I still have anxiety, driving in a new place, especially a new city, and I think that is still a part of fear, but so far I do not know how to give that up. I will think about it.

And regret. I have many regrets; things I have done and things that I did not do. I will grieve my mistakes and try to make amends where I can, and ask for forgiveness for all my errors and mistakes, especially those who hurt others. If I can forgive myself, perhaps I can let go of regrets.

Perhaps in time the sparkle can be stronger.

I can also breathe better and release my grip on the wheel so tightly, loosen my shoulders and let go.

These are different thoughts, but also part of my journey across this amazing country.

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